I Can't Stop Loving You

Today is the first day I have spent without you since it happened
How am I supposed to get through any more empty spaces
In time that seem to envelop me and try to drown out the
Screaming that comes from the brain that fries inside the interior
Of the orifice that resides on the top of this flesh coloured vessel
That I have to live in

What makes you think that you're the only one who has a
Problem that won't seem to go away and just when you
Think it has you find that it was a trick of your
Imagination and that your nightmares are going to
Explain it all to you once they fall back to earth

The first day of spring and everything seems so
Peaceful and full of life sprouting from out of the
Pavement and yards alike only to find themselves
Mowed down by a horrendous machine that makes
More noise than a shrew of a mother-in-law or
Yanked out of your very bed by the tiny
Hands of the humans who inhabit the netherworld

What about yesterday is it worth contemplating
About or is it just a waste of time and money that
Does not grow on trees or so my mother used
To tell me while I was residing in the house of
My parents until I could escape and enter the
House of my own mistakes and horrors

A house of horrors which is sometimes called
Tomorrow never comes and maybe yesterday
Never came at all and was a figment of
My imagination for which I expect to get
Punished as usual because everything
Is my fault even if I wasn't home when
It happened and even if it wasn't my fault

The torture is in my head they tell me
But how do they know do they have
Easy access to the inner workings of an
Eccentric mind and a tortured body that
Fails me sometimes when you come
Close and I can't turn you away because
Dear God I can't stop loving you.